The Weird Thing Is...

We are moving again! Yes its true... and after ALL that. Life is SO weird sometimes. So we finally moved into what was being known as MY house, and it all went smashingly wrong. So many things that have been left undone came up and refused to be ignored. I could no longer look away, or try to convince myself that I SHOULD be happy dammit. It has now been almost a month, and we are on the verge of moving again. 'We' now consists of me, my son and my roomy. This time I hope we stay in one place for a while. I don't really know how this is all going to turn out, I know that for a while there I was beginning to feel like I was certainly going to drown... but now I think I am successfully treading water.

So the plan is to take over my cousin's house when they vacate. Its practically perfect for us, the right rent, the right amount of rooms, close enough to the school. It will be a good thing. A nice big house. Big houses are a necessity in my life.. I swear, since he left there has not been a day that most of my friends haven't been here, stayed here, or stopped by. I think maybe they worry about me, its a good feeling cause I am always the one to be strong and worry about them.

I need to spend more time with my boy though. I was too wrecked for the first little while, so thankfully he has many people who love him who were pitching in, but now I really feel like I want to just smother him with love and affection... he is such an amazing kid and I want to encourage that in him. Life can be really difficult on the kids if they aren't given the right attention when they need it. Well, my coffee is calling, and I need it. There's a little update for you... not much but something. Want to hear something else weird? I haven't opened a book to read in over a month.